Sunday, April 28, 2013
READER'S MESSAGE: 002
ok, uhm last year aug 14 me and my bf became official then we had sex on the 17th same month, it was unprotected and on top of that he released it inside, my ex was 2 years younger but in this generation hiv doesn't pic age right? so 1hour after we had sex i started doubting then he saw that i'm taking a medicine, he asked me "whats that?" and i replied that its a medicine because i'm an hiv positive but it was just a joke it is actually a mefenamic acid because i had a toothache that time, then after when we went in our own houses i texted him straight to the point "are you an hiv positive? im just curious because it is my 1st time to have unprotected sex please be honest" his reply was "hindi ah. grabe ka naman magisip" then i didn't think of it anymore. Few days before the month ends i broke up with him due to some childish issues. then it all started here...... i was the one who broke up with him but i'm the one who's badly affected, due to "depression" (i think) i lost my appetite and got myself wet because it was raining that time i didn't took a bath for 2days because of that break-up. then when i woke up i had sore throat and fever, the fever lasted for 3days but the sore throat was 4-5days i think, its hard to swallow solid food that's why the only thing that's in my stomach was liquid like juice and softdrinks for 2-3days before i started to eat. i also had a rashes, at first it was like 5-7 spots scattered in my face and as the days pass it multiplied like i don't know how many are they, there are some in my arms, back, chest and neck it wore off after like a month. those illness occur at the same time. i tried to self medicate for my sore throat but my fault was i took the medicine that has a side effect and taking it without eating and ended up having a heartburn for a month after the sore throat. then i became paranoid, what if those are the symptoms of hiv? i googled it and those tears started to flow from my eyes because i had some of those symptoms. i actually lost a lot of weight that time, and now i only gained like only 10% of the weight that i lost, anyway last feb 2013 consulted this to a doctor and his assessment was 80%negative and 20% positive(because of my doubt and kapraningan daw) he told me to get tested but i insisted.
i am really doubting with my ex but i cant accuse him. i noticed that he doesn't have any vices although he drinks but only occasional he always sleep early and that's all i know in his lifestyle. i am so paranoid about this.
he is the last person i had sex, no sexual intercourse happened with someone stranger because i have to be cautious even if it is too late to be.
what if i am positive? i'm still not ready to give-up my vices, and i am bound to lose some of my friends because of that. i don't know how will i'm going to live my life if i am infected. i am also afraid to turn my parents down. that unprotected sex only happened one time and i was hoping that if i ever get tested, negative would be the result.
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